After my IET for the Army, I decided this fear thing is bullshit. Whose idea was that anyways?! They say fear is healthy, and where does this apply? I might say it's common sense. You don't have to be afraid of sharks or lightening, just know not to mess with them. I've been afraid of heights my entire life, which I found out is even half normal. Phew. I'd actually been climbing once in Ga, but that was before I was even a legal adult. I was ready to cry when I first went up a rock, or a wall, which ever you visualize better, but I just decided if they hadn't died before me that I'd probably come down in one piece, or at least survive a 20' drop. So now I climb, one measly little finger grip in front of the other.
Next sport on my list, sky diving. Yes, as in plummeting towards Washington at 120mph. I tried it in Oregon in July, it was beyond description to look at 5 mountain peeks at once from 5,000 feet inside of nothing but air. Washington doesn't really have that view from where I jump, but it's still just as amazing. I don't really think people go for the arial view anyways. I've now done 3 tandem jumps, and on the 21st (Sep) I take the course to jump solo. What. Who would've thought. Now believe me, my nerves nearly convince me every time not to step out of a plane, but the second you're out, you know why you did it. It's an amazing feeling.
One of the reasons I signed a contract to Obama, is because I saw that the military represents a lack of fear, and I find that to be phenomenal. And it's an attractive quality. People that can say they can without knowing if they can, and trying anyways. I can't say I'll ever be there, but I'm squelching one fear at a time to mentally match what I want to do physically. But more on the whole military thing.... I took the DLAB, crossed my fingers for the passing score of 105 to make it to DLI in california, and walked out with a 119. I was definitely taken back. Can't study for it, you just have to take it. I saw people getting so frustrated, and was thinking, that won't help you to get stressed out. Just guess!
On a random note, I've discovered a very interesting personality trait that balances me very well. Think of it as a monotone personality. The person has opinions, smiles, and is brilliant, but they don't waiver from themselves much. I always thought that would be a frustrating thing, as if they just stared at you blankly, but no. In fact, it's very comforting. As a female, I have this tendency to jump to conclusions and make up things that are out of no where to rationalize something. Honesty helps this trait as well. But it's like them being very dependable, because you can count on them not being mad or offended. They're going to be solid and the same and not get worked up. Therefore, you as a woman have no reason to get worked up or jump to conclusions because you know where they're going to be emotionally, always. Perhaps I'm not explaining it well, not sure.
